today was my last day of class and I’m having feelings
I mean the first three years of high school were hell and I was in a terrible place and I dont really remember anything besides total misery, but the last three years have been good.
I don’t care for the classes and as it is my grades are just barely passing but I met six of the most wonderful, glorious people on the planet there, and thats the only thing I’ll really miss about it.
I also don’t really have any urge to get out into the real world. I’m okay where I am, tbh, I don’t have anything I really want to do with my life beside knit and read and write and enjoy the people I love. I don’t want to get a proper education, I don’t want to go do real people things. my mother always says one of my biggest failings is my complete lack of ambition, which is very very true. for years my only ambition was staying alive (or dying, depending on how you look at it) and it’s only in the last three or so years that I’ve accepted the idea that I have a future and atm my ambition is to stay happy. I don’t want anything more than that
idek when you’re in high school it feels kind of more acceptable to be an ambitionless failure of a child with terrible grades and no real direction because I’m still a kid. by the time I start next year I’ll be eightteen and I know eightteen year olds arent supposed to be responsible selfsufficient machines but they’re at least expected to try, and I’m really not feeling that
basically the future hella depresses me and I’m moving forward only because time forces me to
Fun Fact: In Germany you need a coin in order to operate shopping carts.
This is also a thing in Britain, except theres two slots (sometimes) One for a pound coin and one for Euros.
Also a teacup holder, we can’t go without our tea. Even in Asda or Tesco.
others don’t have a coin system? but A TEA HOLDER WHAT
America doesn’t have a coin system. Not sure about anywhere else.
America does actually have carts you have to put coins into to operate. Although I’ve only seen them at a local grocer called Aldi’s I’m sure there are other places fed up with their shopping carts getting stolen too.
uh yeah that coin thing is standard in europe, we have it too in the NL
not that it matters much because I’ve seen plenty of shopping carts drifting along in ponds and stuff, but still
“To say, “I was triggered” is not to say, as it is frequently mischaracterized, “I got my delicate fee-fees hurt.” It is to say, “I had a significantly mood-altering experience of anxiety.” Someone who is triggered may experience anything from a brief moment of dizziness, to a shortness of breath and a racing pulse, to a full-blown panic attack. Speaking about trigger warnings as though they exist for the purposes of indulging fragile sensibilities fundamentally misses their purpose: To mitigate harm.”—Shakesville: Triggered (via garlic-knot)
“every time you
tell your daughter
you yell at her
out of love
you teach her to confuse
anger with kindness
which seems like a good idea
till she grows up to
trust men who hurt her
cause they look so much
like you.”—to fathers with daughters - rupi kaur (via rupikaur)
evenin, it seems like you're having a pretty shitty day today & im sorry to hear that. i know ur not doing the talkie talk with friends cos i read ur tags so imma try not to bug u. just, sometimes days are just rly shitty& it feels like everythings turned to shit & sometimes, i have more balanced days where things are pretty okay (& sometimes even rly good ones). and the sun always rises and so will you~ ahhh, this is just a long way of saying, ur p. okay days are on there way so hang in there<3
oh man thank you x1000 thats so lovely of you to say and basically thank you
the way some men say stuff like ‘if a female hit me i’m knocking her the fuck out, i don’t give a fuck, step up like a man get knocked down like a man’ it’s almost like they’re just waiting for the day it happens? some men say it with such intensity and absence of shame that they sound excited to get the opportunity to hit a woman with their full strength and that shit kinda scares me.